in-(security).

I'm tainted

thick

peach cobbler thighs

potbelly

brown eyes

I'm flawed

the stars in my eyes

have long since dwindled

no dance in my step

teeth slanted

i tried to correct them

but my gap is genetic

dentist said it wouldn't close

so i know God intended for me to be this way

sorry,

if your makers vision

is so illuminating

that it blinds you

and while you are

clawing around

trying to find your way in the dark

my security

becomes your scratching post

sharp.

he left engraved in my skin

that I'd never be good enough for him

with books

that laced rainbows

around my mind

am i not bright enough for you?

and tongue

that travels farther than wits end

perhaps i spoke to much?

maybe my refusal to chase you

oblige you

grovel behind you

were those your expectations?

am i too strong for you?

no stranger

to lost love

will not break my back

to find you

but in the meantime

I'll twirl my metaphors around bricks

and throw them at your automobile of a heart

and hope you scar

keloid memories of me

will flood your eyes

and I'll be there to press rewind

every time you hear me speak

every time you hear yourself in a simile

every time you try to breathe

good luck finding purity

i hope perfection comes knocking at your door

so you can prove me wrong

but I'm tainted

imperfection elegance

screwed BLISS

darling desperate

I'm flawed

and there's no cure

words to keep you on your LONG journey:

good luck finding your non-existent pure.

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